Grasping at "The New Dawn"
This entry was posted on 5/12/2007 7:37 AM and is filed under Recovery, Complications.
I was pretty down yesterday but in the end I just needed some time to work through the feelings. I'm in an emotionally better place today. There is some physical discomfort but, for now, it is very bearable. I have never done well with ongoing pain and the doctor said there will be periods of that. He seems to be expecting infections and spasms to be part of my future. It is hard to think of six months to a year of pain and limited activity that might not even solve the problem. The medicine for the spasms seems to be knocking me out right now but maybe I will adjust.
I need to find an alternative. There has to be another route. I just need to get my head around this and treat it as a battle that I will fight and win.
